He is right beside me

Walking through my house, picking up clutter, I tried to think a grateful thought.  I cut apples for my children, thinking of the shameful news I learned about my father.

A two-day hormonal headache, paired with hormonal depression, had me in a fog I couldn't lift.

ADHD angst felt by both my husband and my son, and the rest of us by default, dragged me further down.  It will never go away, I knew.  My son's wife and children would suffer as well, with no answers but comfort from the Father.

Brokenness.

I couldn't see past it today.  It's always there for every family, in one form or another, but usually, I can break through the pain with grateful utterances.  With a smile, with a prayer, I can find reason to dance a jig.

But not today.

The Spirit reminded me.  Turn on the radio.

Then I heard this (You Tube link), and I knew God was there, right beside me.  He always is.

I cried, but they were tears of gratitude...not of pain.

My favorite lines are these:  Just to know that You are near is enough; Just to know You and be loved is enough

Song of Hope (Robbie Seay Band)

All things bright and beautiful You are
All things wise and wonderful You are
In my darkest night, You brighten up the skies
A song will rise

I will sing a song of hope
Sing along
God of heaven come down
Heaven come down
Just to know that You are near is enough
God of heaven come down, heaven come down

All things new
I can start again
Creator, God
Calling me Your friend
Sing praise, my soul
To the Maker of the skies
A song will rise

I will sing a song of hope
Sing along
God of heaven come down
Heaven come down
Just to know You and be loved is enough
God of heaven come down, heaven come down

Hallelujah, sing
Hallelujah, sing
Hallelujah, sing